After thinking about this last night and earlier today, I've decided to post this publicly....even if by doing so, it makes me look like a tard.
As stupid as this might sound, the Canucks' loss to the Bruins last month has taken a much bigger toll on me than I ever could have imagined. Even today - it's still gut-wrenching for me. So many things sadden me about it: The mental image of Kesler tearing up, the riots, the fact that the entire city of Vancouver celebrated after we were up 2-0 in the series (who woulda thunk we would be outscored 21-4 after that?), the rest of Canada hating us and cheering Boston, the possible NHL head office bias towards the Bruins, etc., etc.
I can't stop thinking about it, and there's still a part of me that's in denial that we didn't win. Sometimes at night - I'll re-watch the highlights of Game 7 on You Tube, the riotting, etc., etc. As dumb as that may sound, do you think it might be a good idea to talk to someone about it? (like a counselor), or would I just get laughed at for talking about something so trivial/stupid?
By the way - it's also one of the reasons why I feel a lot more empathetic towards Chris Johansen than I probably should (i.e. the moderator at the "other" CC). I think he's one of the few guys that took this loss harder than me. I want to feel good about hockey again but I just feel really sad. It's also one of the reasons why I've been trying to talk about hockey on here even though it's July......like to overcome the sadness or something.
It comes and goes for me. There are days where I'll feel really good about hockey and the Canucks and just want the season to start......and then there are days where I just feel unbelievably sad that we lost (like today). Felt horrible before going to bed last night as well.
One thing I've tried to tell myself (which has been pretty effective) is that it's just a game that we get to appreciate as fans.....and that as "bad" as we can feel for our Canuck hero's, these guys are all millionaires in the end going home to their incredibly hot wives, $200,000 cars, and king sized mansions.
When I think along those lines I actually feel pretty good (just typing that actually made me feel good!)......but then I get mental images of Jim Robson, Tom Larsheid, etc. and just feel like absolute shit. These guys have been waiting all their lives to see the Canucks win and they haven't seen it.
I even sometimes start wondering if God hates Vancouver or something?
Anyway - these were just some thoughts that have been on my mind since June 15th. I know most of this probably sounds retarded/ridiculous, but this Canuck loss has literally had me in mourning. Amazingly enough, it might be in my top 5 for saddest experiences.....which ironically enough, followed what was one of my greatest and most memorable two month experiences before that (i.e. our playoff run). The skytrain singing, the get togethers, my playoff beard, etc., etc.
Thank you for any insight/advice that you guys might have. I was just wondering if anyone felt the same way....and if you got over it, what you told yourself?
